Anxiety Shakes

Is this really anxiety?

So I'm sitting here at 7:18pm on 25th of August after speaking to my doctor about a symptom of inner shakes, I was sitting in the waiting room pretty calm then I seemed to have a meltdown when trying to explain my symptoms to him. The one thing I know about anxiety is how weird it makes you feel.

So this is just a draft but I want to get down how I feel, I feel very emotional, I could cry at any point but I can't I have to remain strong I have to because I'm David and David it the happy confident one.

We can all see the outside but not the inside, I need support, I need love but that also brings on more emotional feelings, the feeling of loss that one day soon something's gonna get me and rip away my world, my partner & my beautiful daughter who really loves her daddy and he daddy really loves her.

I am an emotional wreck,  even just typing this I'm welling up thinking about the loss that is just a pure part of imagination. So let's talk about the feelings of anxiety, the tricky little bastard that turns many normal feelings into ones of death and destruction.

So I've just seen my doctor who thinks these feelings are anxiety, my doctors who has spent 20 years learning and practicing his profession yet me with zero medical qualifications thinks he is wrong, it can't just be anxiety, why do I think this? Because I've googled my symptoms and am sure it's  some deadly disease ? He must have made a mistake, I forgot to tell him something, if I had told him that it would have given him more information, oh no, I'll have to write a letter to tell him or go back down there now, these are all illogical thoughts.

iPhones, instant internet , doctor google are all tools that can be misused by people, especially anxiety sufferers. One thing I do know is I doubt I will truly rid this awful disease but I must learn to deal with it.

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Its 7:28 & 20 minutes ago I was in the middle of a anxiety episode, 10 minutes later after writing I feel more relaxed, symptoms have decreased and I feel better.